I seriously loath to see myself turning into this kind of a person. My reluctance to act my friend (who is about to take the same standardized test as I am) if he wants to split the money to share some practice exams and supplementary materials, just so, somewhere deep down in my self-centered conscience, I hope I could do better than him on the actual exam, is really sickening. 

My egocentric reasoning being that if I keep this to myself, I could somehow get a little extra practice and maybe develop my skill a bit more, with respect to him. Enough to maybe get a small advantage over him and hopefully somehow be able to get a slightly better overall score than him. 

I really have no other option thought. My hand are really tied on this one and I can’t do much about it. Knowing that my GPA is complete trash, and that my GPA alone would give me no chance of being accepted anywhere, there is a lot riding on this exam for me. I’m desperately putting everything I have into this one exam, assuming that it might improve my overall profile. 

So I just ended up paying for the whole thing by myself. My conceited side is hoping that this imaginary advantage does actually payoff, while my conscience, as a whole, is completely disgusted and repulsed by this whole ordeal. 

Last semester, I had an English professor who spend the whole second half of the semester discussing and arguing  how competition and capitalism is ruining our educational system and its effect on the labor force it produces. Even though she might seem like a complete hippie and a bit naive, she did have many valid points and examples to support her argument. Right now, I feel like I am in the exact position she was arguing against 


Happy Father’s Day dad


dynamicafrica:

The Sidis are a small community of Indians of African descent.

Photographer Ketaki Sheth has documented their lives for a new book, A Certain Grace: The Sidi - Indians of African Descent, published by Delhi-based gallery Photoink.

It is estimated that 60,000 to 75,000 Sidis live in the western state of Gujarat and the southern state of Karnataka. Fewer numbers live in the state of Goa and in the cities of Mumbai and Hyderabad.

Their ancestors, say historians, were slaves, soldiers, traders, pearl divers and Muslim pilgrims who arrived in India over centuries. A large number of them, they say, also arrived in India as free citizens.

Historian Mahmood Mamdani says the ordinary Sidi were descendants of slaves brought by Portuguese down the coast of East Africa, mainly from Mozambique. “The big difference with Atlantic slavery was that hardly any slaves were brought to India to provide cheap labour… Their main attraction was not their cheapness, but their loyalty”, he says.

Ketaki Sheth says the Sidis have lived in India for over half a century. “Except for one or two people I photographed, no-one has visited Africa. The older generation too feel rooted in India,” she says.

“Except for their dance (called Goma, from the Swahili word, ngoma, meaning both drum and dance) and some exorcism rituals which have roots in Africa, they are Indian in language, customs, dress, food and temperament,” says Ms Sheth. The Sidis of Gujarat, for example, speak Gujarati as their mother tongue.

The Sidis are “poor for the most part”, Ms Sheth says. They get some affirmative action benefits from the government as they are classified as “scheduled tribes”, one of India’s most disadvantaged groups.

Mahmood Mamdani says a Sidi elder told him that a girl marrying outside the caste or community is usually thrown out. He said the prohibition on marriage outside the community is more because of “interest than identity”. Outsiders, the Sidis fear, will take advantage of the affirmative action benefits.

“Whenever I asked a Sidi person I met whether they thought of themselves as African or Indian, I inevitably got a quizzical look. What, they seemed to think, was wrong with me: they were of course, Indians,” says Mahmood Mamdani.

(images & text via BBC)


bakefestatspliffanys:

yourveryfleshshallbeagreatpoem:

kidxforever:

Ronald Davis - I’m Not A Bum, I’m A Human Being

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punchdrunkmag:

The National’s new album Trouble Will Find Me has already gained massive positive reviews in every outlet, and I can only come to write this as a fan. The album didn’t disappoint, it’s immediate, it’s beautifully simple and approachable. It relates to anyone growing up through and around 30’s, as you start gaining a bigger circle of people around you who need you to have your shit together. Going crazy is something you have to plan and in the middle of it you might have a more considerate approach, wondering how much trouble you’ll get into if you stay longer. This is what largely what the record is about for me. 

This is again a track yet to be singled out by them, but it’s one of theirs that builds into a great outro where the trick is to realise it’s all still the same amazing song.

- E


christel-thoughts:

ghdos:

sandandglass:

Wayne Allyn Root - seriously, look his face in the last gif. 

This smug motherfucker.

I don’t even know whether to classify this as classism, the dehumanizing effect of capitalism, or simply “look at this fucking asshole”. The most appropriate is most likely “I’m a rich white guy; nobody’s suffering matters more than my money” - a brief synopsis of a good 65/70 % of the world’s problems.

Someone in my class tried to posted this in the discussion board for the class a day before the final exam, (we have been talking about it for the past 3 weeks.)

An Anonymous student 

The “What to study guide” says that Disheveled activates the destruction complex but the reader says that it inhibits it. Which one is correct?

To which the professor responded with 

duncanmc Posted May 3, 2013 at 4:17 pm | Permalink

Thanks for pointing out the typo on the reader. Of course dish inhibits APC, otherwise all of our in class activities with wnt would have been totally wrong.

However, I am curious did you try to answer this on your own? The internet and the textbook have numerous resources on Wnt. Did you not trust your findings? Why not?

I’m sure you are an intelligent student because you were admitted into one of the premier Universities in the country. Furthermore, you are well along your way into one of the most difficult degrees on campus. You should trust yourself more!

I sense a certain lack of independence many student questions in recent years that makes me disappointed about the sort of mental training you are getting during your education. This makes me concerned for the welfare of our economy in the future, when you enter the work force unable to figure things out on your own or not confident in your abilities to figure things out.

If you didn’t try to figure this out on you own, why not? You’d have gotten you answer much faster if you looked at the textbook or internet.

Furthermore, looking it up on your own, you might have stumbled into something really interesting or that would help you to remember the pathway better.

What will you do when you are working on a job and and equipment manual has conflicting information. Most manuals are even more poorly written and proofread than the material in this class. Are you going to bother your boss by asking a question you could look up easily?”

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Ouch… That must have been really humiliating. Good thing the discussion board responses are anonymous and impersonal.

It’s okay anonymous  fellow student, you finally got through that class and do not have to worry about it again. Even though no one knows who you are, I hope you feel better.

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I’m really glad I somehow stumbled upon and found this. If you have time, you should read through the story. Such an amazing and awesome thing to do for a complete stranger. I feel like I found a new person to look up to. 

The story: http://www.zefrank.com/chillout/
The Ted Talk: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gSSNHO1dDs



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